Sometime around early 1986, my wife and I were invited to become part of the mission team that would plant the Mexico City Church of Christ. To say that our initial reaction was unspiritual would be an understatement. After all, there was all this work to do with the Hispanic community in the U.S., and we already had three kids to raise, and I had gotten my PhD and had a career to develop, and…
It reminded me of an earlier, “difficult” decision in my life. 1982: After studying the Bible and being confronted with the reality that I was not a true disciple of Christ, I kept trying to find reasons to doubt the decision that I had to make. What about baptism? Isn’t it all about faith only? What about the many Christian denominations? What about the Holy Spirit? After one such session, one of the evangelists of the church smiled and simply asked: “Well, Jaime, are you a Christian according to the Bible?… No? Then why don’t you just deal with that for now and let God help you clear up all these issues as you grow spiritually?”
That also reminded me of an even earlier decision. 1978: I had a great girlfriend and wanted to marry her, but at the moment I was preparing to leave Puerto Rico and move to Boston to go to graduate school. Should we marry and go together? What about culture shock (my girlfriend had never even flown in an airplane)? What if it didn’t work? What if it was too much to build a marriage and study a PhD at a very intense academic institution (MIT)? Should we wait a year and then get married? What if we fell out of love duing that year of separation?
Her mother could tell that I was really struggling with the decision. One day she handed me something she was reading: it was one of those “Daily Reflections” type of booklet. That day’s entry talked about faith not being an endless search for the right answer from God, but about weighting your options, making your decision and then trusting that God would guide you after you stepped out on that faith. She looked at me and said, “So what are you waiting for?”
Sometimes we face decisions and we want to have all the answers and all the options and possibilities right in front of us so we can feel that we’re making the “right” choice. It’s like stopping at an intersection, and not moving until all the traffic lights ahead of us are green. If that is what you are waiting for, you will never get anywhere!
I made the choice! I married the girl, and we embarked on the journey together. After 28 plus years, we are still on this great journey and still together! I am so grateful.
And I am grateful that I put off all my questions and excuses and made the decision to become a disciple of Jesus. God has come through and cleared up many of my doubts along the way.
And I am grateful that we made the decision of faith and joined the mission team to Mexico City. God has blessed us tremendously because of that choice.
If you believe that God wants what is best for you, if you trust him enough to just submit yourself to His will, and you believe that his love for you is greater than you can imagine, you don’t need to wait until all the lights are green. You just need to take it one step, one crossroads at a time. God bless you!
Jaime De Anda